I still don’t understand breaking someone’s heart the way you did to me, but I need to just let the idea that I must know, go. Because its unhealthy to dwell in the confusion of someone who isn’t really okay. I can sense you’re not okay and you’re confusion because your mind just isn’t there yet. I’m also going to stop hopping from past to future and constantly looking for something in someone that doesn’t want to be had. I’m going to throw myself into business. No matter how lonely or how much I long for a best friend by my side, I can’t make that person just anyone. I know this, especially now. When I find them, they have to know all the parts of the real me. I can’t fake anything because I want it to be right. I really do just mostly miss the best friend part.