summer & beer & oh yeah, Blink-182. ☀🙌 #tbt (at Jones Beach Nikon Theater Sec 17 Row A)
Precisely where I hope to find him. 😂 (at Planting Fields Arboretum)
I need to compile a list of all the terrible ways you have treated me and broke my heart over this last year. So I look at it during times like these, when I’m idealizing what we ONCE had. It was so beautiful and we were so in love, that sometimes it’s hard to see past that. But you’re not that person anymore. You stopped being that person a year ago. And although I will always love and miss him, I need to let him go. I keep wanting someone who isn’t there. And it’s so hard.
Such a shock to my system that I haven’t even began to deal with this end, two months after breaking up. I have buried it so far down that I believed I was over it. How can you be over something you haven’t even dealt with? Silly. I’m just terrified of feeling again. I would rather wear a bandaid forever.
It’s like a kaleidoscope of memories. It just all comes back.
My colorful attire in winter describes how I feel about it. 👎
I know I’m not wrong when I say we’re not done yet. We needed to grow and change but that deep seed won’t go away. Because I’m not even fucking mad at you. That’s how I know. But I also like exploring new people and experiences without you, right now. It’s just that thing that’s buried deep pops up just a little bit every now and then, and I think of you and I know.
If you’re already loved by me, I care so deeply for you, forever. If you’re meeting me for the first time recently? There is a wall there that is immovable. And I’m not sure ill let any new person in for a very long time. I’ve been meeting a ton of new people recently, and I don’t know how to behave after the initial attraction.